Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Week 97

0.4lb gain


I'm wary of that figure. I find it very difficult to believe I put on less than half a pound in this past week. I can only assume my body isn't showing up yesterday's over indulgence to the point of feeling ill yet.

My guess is it will show itself next week, along with many more goodies needing to be eaten over the next 7 days.

And yet, and yet... you know after yesterday I find myself craving fresh vegetable soup for lunch. Which I will probably have before tucking into a whole pile of things I shouldn't.

Much as I love this time of year, it's a nightmare for the health conscious. I mean, if you were weaning yourself off cigarettes, it would be a hell of a lot harder if there was a major smoking festival every year that everyone celebrated and was sponsored by all the big tobacco companies.

Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 12st 10.6lb – 178.6lbs
Body fat: 23.5%
Total Weight Loss: 96.4lbs

Monday, December 18, 2006

Week 96

0.6lb loss!


After last week's lunch, a scone while out with Maggie during the week and flapjack in a cafe with the kids yesterday, not to mention the occasional nibble of extra bits here and there, I was truly expecting to have put on, rather than lost half a pound.

However, other than these bits I acknowledge, I have been staying on track. Gone are the days when if it all went pear shaped at lunchtime then I would write off the day, or if I blew it on Friday then I could kiss goodbye to the weekend.

One of the most powerful mindset shifts has been the idea that if I over indulge on one meal, I can immediately get back on track with the next. I'm no longer feeling the self loathing at having over-eaten, that the rest of the day (or week) is spent stuffing my face in a way that is almost self abuse and punishment.

Statistical Significance: It's week 96 and I've lost about 96 pounds. I don't imagine the numbers of weeks and weight are ever likely to coincide again.

Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 12st 10.2lb – 178.2lbs
Body fat: 24.1%
Total Weight Loss: 96.8lbs

Monday, December 11, 2006

Week 95

0.6lb loss!

I'll take that and be very happy with it. To be honest, I thought I might have gained another half pound this week. Christmas nibbles are starting to appear all over the place. In fact I have a Christmas lunch with some business colleagues this afternoon.

And last Thursday was the final class of the Philosophy Evening Course I was teaching, so Maggie made a chocolate cake for me to take in. It went down exceptionally well.

At this time of year I'm more than happy not to have made a gain. Maybe I'll get through Feastmas yet without going back over the 13 stone mark...

Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 12st 10.8lb – 178.8lbs
Body fat: 23.3%
Total Weight Loss: 96.2lbs

I had way too much to eat at that Christmas lunch. So much, in fact, that I was in serious discomfort. Gone are the days when I could eat 3 large courses and not suffer. In a pleasant Scottish hotel with a menu thrust under my nose, the patterns in my brain laid down from the days when I was 275lbs, became the path of least resistance. Suddenly I'm ordering food with abandon.

The starter itself - a large bowl of cullen skink with a bread roll - would have been slightly more than I usually have for lunch on its own. Halfway through the main course I'm aware that I'm already full, but I'm not going to stop. And hey, it Christmas! There's no way I'm not having a pudding, no matter how large it is or how stuffed I feel.

...must... have... shortbread... with... coffee... ...

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

I felt ill, yet completely unable to stop myself.

I didn't have dinner - still far too full - and had a lighter breakfast than usual this morning.

I'd like to think I won't be that stupid again for a while, but in this month there are no guarantees.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Week 94

0.4lb gain.

A few extras, not enough activity. Sounds about right.

Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 12st 11.4lb – 179.4lbs
Body fat: 24.4%
Total Weight Loss: 95.6lbs