Monday, August 13, 2007

Week 130

2.4lb gain.

Sigh... I thought last week seemed a bit too good to be true.

Mind you, along with more homemade scones from the kids, the real killer was an entire tub of Ben & Jerry's Choc-Chip Cookie Dough ice cream on Friday evening. Haven't done that for a long time.

It followed a visit to the doctor who's finally decided to refer me to a specialist in Edinburgh about my CFS/B12/whatteverthehellitis. Unfortunately, at this point I have no idea about waiting times, and it's another 2 weeks until I see my GP again.

I've decided I need to shift into "Survival mode". Up until now I've been in "basically normal but with less energy mode" which clearly isn't working. The bouts of depression have become crippling and the doctor doesn't want to offer anything like anti-depressants or counselling until I've seen the specialist.

The only medication I have is food so when faced with intense emotional pain or a mouthful of youreallyshouldnteatthat, it's even more difficult to stay on track.

The battle goes on, but I wouldn't be surprised if I start slipping a bit until progress starts being made on my whatteverthehellitis.


Starting Weight: 19st 9lb - 275lbs
Current Weight: 12st 7.6lb - 175.6lbs
Body fat: 23.3%
Total Weight Loss: 99.4lbs

6 comments:

Sayre said...

I'm sorry to hear that things are so up in the air with your whateverthehellitis problems... Do you have any other strategies for coping with this stress? Perhaps a relaxation cd or something of the sort? I suppose I am one of the lucky few that doesn't respond to the lure of B&J, Haagandas or any of the other "upper end" ice creams. I'm strictly a store-brand girl, chocolate chip, chocolate, or vanilla. My choices always. Except when I'm not eating ice cream, which would be now.

Thinking of you, Kim. I hope your GP and specialist can do something for you.

S William said...

Hang in there. Gains are hard to take, but I know you can do it. I had a gain about a month ago.

Pandora Woman said...

*hugs* It's the dogged pesky persevernce that will drag You through. Don't give up! It is not as if you have to learn a new routine it's an old, tried and tested one and you have been doing it so well.

I'll keep returning here to sneak and check up on you.

*hugs*

Willow

Kim Ayres said...

Thanks for all the support :)

Half Man said...

Don't give up. You have done well. Despite the "whateverthehellitis" setback, you have a lot to be proud of. Respect yourself in whatever way you decide to proceed.

Kim Ayres said...

thanks Half Man