Week 80

2lb Loss!

Phew! I'm heading back in the right direction again.

To be honest I think there was just something of a blip last week. Even taking all excuses into consideration, I still didn't really see how I could have put on a pound. And despite the fact that I've been on track this week, I have still strayed by 2 scones and a piece of birthday cake, and still not had much more activity that picking my daughter up from school, so I don't see how I could have lost 2 lbs.

It seems far more likely that I was even last week and lost 1lb this week, which would still put me in the same place, but would make more sense.

I'm going to have to invest in a slightly more acurate set of scales.


NEWS EXTRA
Just found a link on Sir Squishy's Blog, that was discovered on Sir Twice the Man's blog, that goes through to an article featuring The Knights of the Round Bottoms:

http://calorielab.com/news/2006/08/16/diet-blogs-knights-of-the-round-bottoms-share-solace-in-camraderie/

Cult status soon...


Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 13st 4lb – 186lbs
KoTRB Weight Lost : 24lb
Total Weight Loss: 89lbs

Week 79

1lb gain.

Bollocks!

I thought I'd done well this week. I've only strayed off course with a scone, a bowl of ice-cream and extra garlic bread. That's it. Normally that would be easily absorbed. At worst I would stay even. So to have put on a pound feels deeply unfair - as if there is actually fairness in the universe - why do I cling to the hope, despite all the evidence to the contrary?

OK, let's get a grip. If it's not really the food then it has to be the activity, or lack thereof.

Ah well, that seems more likely.

Truth is, with this B12 problem and feeling a general sense of tiredness most of the time, my activity levels have dropped off considerably. There are days when I don't leave the house, and when I do I'm not walking about that much.

Still, weight gain for 2 weeks in a row is not good, even if I have an excuse. I'm going to have to be a bit more vigilant I think.


Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 13st 6lb – 188lbs
KoTRB Weight Lost : 22lb
Total Weight Loss: 87lbs

Week 78

1lb gain.

Bollocks.

I had done well most of this past week. Saturday, however, contained a "Chocolate to Die For" cone from the Cream O' Galloway visitor centre, which is damn fine ice cream. That would have been containable, however, as we managed to avoid any kind of spiral in behaviour.

Of course I'd forgotten that it was also my father-in-law's 85th birthday on Sunday, so as well as eating more than usual at dinner, Maggie had made a rather tasty birthday cake and there was enough for seconds...

But the final damage was done yesterday where not only did I meet up with a friend for lunch, but we had a family meal out in the evening too, and I cannot eat out yet without going overboard.

Statistical Significance: it is exactly 18 months since we began this new way of eating.


Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 13st 5lb – 187lbs
KoTRB Weight Lost : 23lb
Total Weight Loss: 88lbs

Week 77

2lb loss!

Woohoo! It works! The system works! I DO know what I'm doing. Stay on track for the week and the results show. And considering my activity levels have been only slightly above zero I have even more to be pleased about.

OK, of course my system of focusing on healthy eating works, otherwise I wouldn't have lost 89lbs or been able to keep going for almost 18 months. But every time I put on a pound or two, even though it's because I caved in to the old eating patterns, there's always a slight fear before I stand on the scales that maybe it won't have worked this time.

You'd think it would get easier.

Actually, it is considerably easier than when I first started, but I don't know whether it will ever cease to be a problem altogether.


Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 13st 4lb – 186lbs
KoTRB Weight Lost : 24lb
Total Weight Loss: 89lbs

Week 76

2lb gain.

While of course I'm disappointed, I'm not altogether surprised. As I mentioned last week, I'd been contending with dodgy eating patterns and Maggie's birthday; this week the eating patterns fell apart.

Saturday reached the peak of destructive eating. I knew that if I started the 200g bar of chocolate then I would end up finishing it. I knew that if I had ice-cream for pudding then I was setting up a sugar craving where I would end up eating chocolate later in the evening. I knew that if I finished the Chinese take-away I would want ice-cream to finish with. I knew that if we bought a Chinese take-away for dinner then I would eat far too much - at least twice the amount I normally would, if not more, plus prawn crackers. I also knew I'd end up having a really lousy night's sleep with all that extra sugar and fat trying to metabolise itself.

Yet I still agreed that we should get a Chinese take-away for dinner because it had been a tough week, Maggie's mother had been taken into hospital and no one felt like cooking.

The reasons were justifiable enough, but once the decision was made, the outcome of gross over-eating was inevitable.

Part of the self-loathing at my behaviour stems from this - at all the points along the way I knew exactly what I was doing and what the outcome would be. And because I knew, the feeling is that I should have been able to do something about it, to stop it from happening. Yet all I could do was sit back and watch as it all unfolded before me with a sense of complete inevitability.

Like boarding a train - once on, you're there for the duration - the point of choice is before you take the first step. After that it's too late.


Still the last day or two we've been back on form. Over the past 5 weeks I've only made a net gain of 3 pounds which could have been so much worse. But it is disappointing to think that I'm back where I was 9 weeks ago.


Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 13st 6lb – 188lbs
KoTRB Weight Lost : 22lb
Total Weight Loss: 87lbs