Even again.
I can't believe that only 2 slices of cake (on separate evenings) and one lunch out (which was still quite healthy, if on the large size) have prevented me from losing any weight again, so I must conclude that once again it's down to lack of activity.
Fatmammycat has been giving me lots of support and encouragement over the past few months, and it's greatly appreciated. She has also been constantly nagging (in the nicest possible way) for me to get out and exercise. She is, of course, perfectly right and I'm glad she hasn't given up on me. But this is one are that I really struggle with.
I've never been much of a fitness or sports fanatic and have some serious psychological blocks against exercise.
Part of it is laziness, but I don't think it's the whole story. Some of it is to do with the fact that I have managed this far without getting involved in it, and partly it has to do with childhood experiences (see the latest entry on my main blog,
PE Teachers Are Demons From Hell). But if I had to sum it up in one overwhelming word, I would have to say "daunting".
Fatmammycat suggests I start with a one-hour brisk walk a day. From her perspective it is nothing more than the next step up from walking to the car. But for me it feels like she's asking me to run a marathon or climb Everest and it fills me with utter dread.
Lord Lessismore has suggested that I get a friend to join me and I could see how that would work. The main problem there is that I don't have any that live closer than 100 miles away.
So I feel completely on my own with this, trying to tackle a demon that has no discernable shape and I don't know how to get a grip on.
It's sunny just now. I think I'll go for a 35 minute walk and think about it.
Starting Weight: 19st 9lb – 275lbs
Current Weight: 14st 0lb – 196lbs
Total Weight Loss: 79lbs
Weight Lost since joining the Knights of the Round Bottoms: 14lb
